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The Good Boy
I sat there
eating my steamed fish like a good boy. No butter, a little Lo-Salt and some
cracked black pepper. Then little green mound of vegetables sat on the side to
finish it off. I even had a huge Spanish
orange waiting on the table for desert instead of cake. By the time I’d
squeezed the quarter lemon over the turbot’s back I had forgotten all about the
head in the box on the chair next to mine.
Dear Sophie
didn’t make for a great dinner guest. She wasn’t much of a talker for a start,
just being a head in a box and all. Though her presence did make me feel at ease.
I wasn’t very good when left alone you see. I do things when nobody is around
to see what I’m really capable of. Especially in this huge empty house mother
left me.
But I was a good
boy with Sophie sitting there in that cardboard box, stained a little, deep
patches of red on the corners. She knew all the tricks to make me behave. Like
the healthy eating. If Sophie wasn’t there I’d have had it all, the fish
sweating with fatty butter and stinging with sea salt.
The turbot’s eyes
were staring at me. I needed to cut them out. I don’t like things looking at me
when I eat them. Never have. You could ask Sophie that, she’d tell you. Well I
guess she can’t anymore.
I was glad I’d
chosen a proper silver fish knife from the cutlery. They have little points on
the end, a sharp curve that lets you flick out the eyes. The flat fish that
resembled a torn off human face made me feel nervous looking up at me like
that. Like a judge or God or my dear dead mother. There was something different
about this particular fish however. It wanted to keep hold of those hardened
liquid pupils.
I gouged right in
there, feeding the silver curve into the socket trying to gain purchase,
twisting as it plunged. I had the knife on a thirty degree angle when I felt
the eye resist. I knew then it was the right time, the perfect time. I’ve had
experience with knives and eyes. I jerked the blade up.
Then the
strangest thing happened. The eye sucked itself back into the socket throwing
the knife from my hand. It was a tough fish alright and eating it was going to
be as torturous as Santiago’s ordeal with his infamous marlin.
I ducked my head
under the dining table, the pale blue lace tablecloth falling around my neck
like the Madonna’s veil. I saw it there, gleaming and sharp sitting on the
floorboard. It was tempting me. Knives always do that to me, it’s not my fault.
“Can’t even eat a
fish without screwing it up.”
My head banged
against the underneath of the oak table sending a kaleidoscope of stars
spinning behind my eyes.
“Come on boy,
come finish the job.”
I peered over the
edge of the table, the lace like an ocean horizon in my vision, my orange a
burning Mediterranean sun behind palm trees of steamed broccoli. I half expected
the turbot to lift its head and talk to me like those novelty singing wall
plaques. It didn’t. Much to my relief. Then the other question did raise a
head, a very ugly head indeed. If it wasn’t my dinner that addressed me then
who or what did?
“It was me
idiot.”
Again startled
though less so than the initial shock, like the second turn on a
roller-coaster, I looked down at the blood stained box sitting next to me. It
couldn’t be though, not my Sophie. I mean she was dead. I know she persuaded me
to be good but she never spoke the words, just made me feel what I should do
somehow.
“Such a good boy
aren’t we.”
“Sophie, is that
really you?”
“Who the fuck
else is it going to be, Billy the Bass over there?”
I looked at the
plate and pushed it away. Dare say I was over steamed fish forever now.
“Come on good boy
open up it’s getting claustrophobic in here.”
So I did. I leant
over and carefully pulled back the cardboard flaps. I never used tape; I find
it too permanent. I prefer to tuck the flaps beneath each other. And there she
was, my dear Sophie in her box. She smelt bad and beautiful all at once. Like
the smell that made me want to fuck girls and kill them at the same time. This
wasn’t a sweet smell though; this was the odour of decay.
“Are you…alive?”
“Yeah I’m so
alive I’m fucking dancing in here.”
I did see a
movement though. Something throbbing and bulging at the top of her head. I
spread the hairs, snapping some that were too matted to move and looked inside.
There was a wound, deep red and covered with a thick film of blood. It was
pumping like the pulse of a heart. I sliced the tissue with the nail of my
middle finger and pushed it in up to my second knuckle. I hoped to feel her
beating. But as soon as the clot broke open a huge black bug flew out snapping
its wings between my fingers. One after another they came. Possibly a dozen
winged insects crawled and flew from the gash in the top of her head.
“You wanna stop
playing around up there?”
“Sorry Sophie I
didn’t think.”
“No you never do.
You never did.”
“I’ve been a good
boy Sophie, a very good boy indeed.”
“I know,” She
said taming her voice. “I know you try hard to be good.”
“I didn’t have
butter. Or salt, not real salt.”
“Okay I know
you’re a champion. If I had hands I’d stick a great big gold star on your
chest. Top of the class for you.”
I smiled not
knowing if she was being factitious or gracious. I never could work her out.
“Do you need
anything? I mean can you eat or drink maybe?”
“I’m dead. You
killed me. How do you suppose I can eat or drink?”
Her voice was
angry again and the smell from the soggy box made my head spin. I wanted to
touch her, to slide my finger back inside that hole, to search for more insects
in her brain with my brown nail. To scrape away her memories, dig them right
out of there.
“I’m sorry. Yes
you have been a good boy. You didn’t try to fuck my head once you cut it off.
That’s something I guess.”
“Yes that is
something.” I agreed not really connecting with her words.
“You didn’t mind
using the torso though.”
I felt the red
flush to my cheeks then. I didn’t know that she would be aware of that. I’m not
sure how she could be. I stuttered searching for words before she interrupted.
“Don’t worry I
didn’t feel anything. No matter where you stuck it.”
I ducked my head
back under the table again, not to search for silver fish knives but to throw
up. The taste of lemon turbot clung to my lips like a greasy sin. I dare not
come out from that hiding place.
“Come on I
forgive you. I know you can’t help yourself.”
She was right
that sister of mine. I couldn’t stop myself from doing those things. I tried,
oh how I tried but the smell, that sweet honey and earth. That sea salt, that
lemon, that fish.
I threw up again.
“Look if it’s any
comfort I died with peace.”
“How could you? I
mean the things I did. The violence, the rage, the tearing of things.”
“I gave myself up
long before you could do your worst. I learnt from watching the others not to
struggle, to pour ice on the anger.”
“So why are you
back now?”
“I’m not dear
brother. You haven’t let me go.”
***
I scraped away
the remains of my dinner into the compost bin in the kitchen. The lemon slices
fell on her fingers, the fish eye stabbed by a nipple buried in a half full
baked beans can. I decided to sort it out in the morning, I was too tired,
exhausted from the whole damn mess of it. I drew a glass of water and drank
until it was empty. I did this again two more times before taking another glass
to my bed. I was confident I’d wake up wet in one way or another that night.
I set the alarm
on my watch. The one Sophie had bought for my eighteenth birthday five years
ago. That beautiful twin sister of mine. I switched off the lamp and watched the
glowing green hands ticking for a while before turning over. My pillow was cool and refreshing. I looked
across the bed into her eyes. They were dead, glazed over and white. Yet she
looked straight at me, through me. The wound from the top of her head stained
the Egyptian cotton pillow.
“So I guess
you’ll let me go then?
“I guess so.” I
said watching to see if there was any movement of skin or muscle as she spoke.
“First thing in the morning. I promise”
“Well that’s
good. For both of us I mean. You can’t live like this and I can’t stick around
forever. Neighbours will start complaining about the smell.”
“I know.”
But her words only served to remind me. I took
in a deep breath and filled my lungs with her. The decay, the lemon, the honey,
the earth and the death. The death most of all. It swam through my veins riding
on my blood cells, filling my body with the stuff.
“Yes the smell. “
I said. “It makes me want to fuck or kill. I never do know which to choose”
I lifted the head
from the pillow astonished how heavy it suddenly felt. Yet all I could think of
was that wound full of hard blood and insects.
“As you’re
already dead I don’t have to make a choice, not this time.”
I lowered my dear
dead sister under the fresh white cotton cover.
I let her go the
next morning. She was compost for my
allotment along with the rest of them. I sat in my shed after digging and
turning. I drank a mug of hot tea to cool me down as the sweat dried on my
skin.
All the time I
was thinking about my dear Sophie and the smell. I suddenly felt very hungry,
hungrier that I had in a long time.
“Steamed fish
tonight,” I said standing. “No today I’ll have fried fish with plenty of butter
and chips on the side instead of vegetables. And cake for desert, with thick
whipped cream.”
I pulled on my
coat and walked out across the allotment, only stopping to dig out some
potatoes with my hands. The smell lifted with them. I saw an eye peeking
through the soil so I pushed it in with the toe of my boot and walked off home
to my empty house for dinner.
“And I’ll have
lots and lots of salt.” I said taking in the air around me. “I’ll start being a
good boy again tomorrow. I promise.”
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